Touching grass is fun. So yesterday (!!!) my friends and I went to aspen park It was then only brayden, cristan, and I who stayed and we went to brayden's house since his parents left him. On the way there, we brought the yellow ball along by kicking it and it got the honor of being named. Comrade+buddy=Cuddy, so that was they/them's name, and we developed a fond relationship with cuddy after many hard challenges along the journey such as crossing the road and avoiding the muddy grass. At brayden's house, we decided to cook smth bc why not, and we decided to make tomato and eggs, which is like a popular dish for many asian families, idk if it has a specific name, but like its very good and easy to make. We beat 3 eggs (75 cents!!!) and sliced a tomato, put the eggs in to unraw them, took them out, put the tomatoes in with water to unraw them, and then combined the egg and tomato together to form a masterchef quality dish that was ready for chef cristan to taste test. We also found some leftover pizza, so we ate that instead of rice, and the tomato egg was a bit undersalted, and it tasted a bit questionable, perchancely because of brayden's ultra-clean kitchen frfr (we may have tetanus uh oh). Afterwards we had ice cream for dessert and helped brayden wash the dishes for the first time in 5 years. fun. Very questionable kitchen hygiene earned brayden's kitchen a spot on kitchen nightmares! We then went home and I "crashed out" so that's why I'm still mostly awake now.

fun my god its already been 23 minutes ahh fun. So my point is, i don't really have a point, but I think smth I gained is happiness and in person interaction, which is quite important for sanity reasons.

Anyways, I also wanted to talk abt procrastination, since there's been a lot of that happening this week, and I really don't know what to do abt it yey. Since there's really no big math stuff coming up or anything, in middle school at least, I don't really do as much math, but then it feels so much more boring doing anything else. Like at this point, alcumus is kind of like a procrastination method for me, along with discord, yt, and piano ig. I don't really know what to do, since i convince myself that I'm being productive, but its just in really small bursts and I don't end up getting much done. And I keep telling myself about the consequences, maybe, idk, but like its always too late, so I have to rush through the assignment, making me dislike it even more, and decreasing motivation in general, which restarts the cycle. uhh yea also my slep schedule is a bit messed up (its been 30 minutes of me yapping), so I always look dead, feel dead, but i still have to think. I kind of just need a week to refresh or smth, which is good since spinrg break is coming up, but I still have to make it through this weekend, fun. I just don't feel like doing any work on Friday also, since i always have the next day. ahhhhh. that's a terrible thing to think, but yea i have no motivation really. aauhghgghueaegghhh. so maybe I'm just skill issue, or delusional, or both, or immature, but ig I can think about that later, or maybe read this in the morning and realize how high i was. So if you are reading this, uhhh, have fun, and also work on the fafp project eheheh.

that's more writing than I did in school today wow, so useful.