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Fun, very fun indeed. nothing intrerstngin has really happened. life is quite boring. I am procrastinating.
idea of what to post
I'm out of ideas now

they should give us pie at lunch for pi day, but they didn't so sad. i actually don't have anything to write abt there's nothing happening, so ill just yap.
yap aside from that, we had the last mathcounts meeting yesterday which I got $6 and a pack of cards so fun. So nostaligic ig, since last year we also had a similar thing and we played cards and stuff that was fun. aheha friend

I got a haircut so sad. Last time I got one was like in China and I thought I would keep it longer this time, which worked for the most part since I flattened with a hat, but now it’s puffing out in the sides and it looks weird. Oh well, it’ll probably look better in a week, and it doesn’t really matter ig. However, this gives me something else to be sad abt instead of state, so that’s at least useful. And over the last few days I’ve been thinking abt stuff, and I’ve come to the conclusion that’s state is pretty cool and all, but it didn’t really have any purpose in determining my future, and also I should be happy for supreme chairman William, so yea I can stop coping now. Today was also quite an interesting day, since school and stuff after a long weekend, and I realized how much I’d been procrastinating and also how much I can’t run yay. Also it’s pretty late, so this is quite yappiful yap and I really can’t think of how this would come off as to others, so I’ll just write to myself ig. Anyways, I learned some interesting stuff abt life today, like how literall sunshine is actually so good. Like seasonal depression is a very real thing and during the winter I always hated going outside bc it was cold, but it was also so boring and stuffy inside, so I just felt like every day was a drag and I was quite depress and procrastinating. But today I actually touched a lot of grass and breathed some air, which actually tasted very good like very airy and airlike. Anyways that’s a pretty effective way to get more happy. It also works for other things like music, like didn’t listen to music for a long time, but when I did listen to it again, it brung back random memories and emotions that had been associated with that certain song, and idk if I’m just hallucinating but it’s till pretty cool. It just seems like the past is always better than the present, yet it’s funny how we all want to grow up faster and want to speed through the day. Like today it just sank it that it was March, yea I’m a bit late, but like that means its already been like 3 months that’s pretty obvious but still crazy. Like math comps and stuff made time pass so much faster, so I hope that I will be able to enjoy time more now, but then again, I’ve already spent like 15 minutes writing this wow. There’s also this physiology thing that basically says that ppl are generally more honest at night or when they are tired, so it’s the best time to think abt yourself and life and stuff, and also yap abt the day. This blog itself is kinda like a therapist, since u can record stuff down for u to read I the future, or for other ppl to read, and ig I should treat it more like that instead of only recording the good stuff. Wow so much yap. At least I still have my eyebrows yay.

so state happened today, most of my friends already know all the scores and stuff, but if you don't then just wait another month or read someone else's blog or smth, I don't feel like talking abt it. William orz orz orz, and good job to the team for getting 2nd place yea. have fun next year also I'm sure you guys will have a lot of fun. I guess I accomplished my goal somewhat, with improvement from last year, and I got the same ranking as Jayden Yang, and tied with Hannah good job. tiebreaker is annoying but I'm not as mad as I should be (?) idk, maybe coping here, but like I used to be kinda terrified of countdown round, so at the beginning of mathcounts season my goal was just top 18 or smth (past self was so accurate wow), basically bc I wanted to get a good score, but not good enough to make cdr (idk really), so that happened . I guess I should be happy that I contributed to the team round by solving like 2 problems, and I pulled my weight mostly (not really but ahhhh). Well now middle school math comps is basically over, and I'm just recording my thoughts here as a reflection for the future. My next goals are just to aime qual again next year and hopefully get 8 or 9, and maybe usajmo or usamo in the future, but that's in a long time so idk. In high school I know there's some math comps like arml and ictm or whatever, so that's fun also all ppl in the math team this year are going to north . I didn't really expect much from middle school math stuff, since I started pretty late, but I'm happy that I made state and at least I improved from 7th grade.