ive been thinking yknow
about the future and all that
reading old texts I had with marc is so depressing for me bro
we've drifted so far apart
I'm worried about high school
I'm honestly not sure if i can get into crystal
i don't want to go to a public school either I'm so worried about my future
but if i end up going to private school i lose all my closest friends and I'm basically reset in terms of friends
I'm happy where i am right now but of course i have to grow
i know i should cherish my youth but i feel limited with my health situation and everything
why does this have to happen to me of all people
"the best people have the rottenest luck" is so real
not saying I'm part of the people that count as the best but you get the point
anyways i don't want to grow up man
i spend all these years working towards getting into a good college to get a job and then what
I'll be stuck working every day to survive and try to enjoy find slivers of happiness on occasional vacations every year?
that's the last thing i want
bro can i just like move into the woods and live not too far from a big city but far away enough to just be happy
the only thing i want in this world is happiness why has society made it so difficult for people to enjoy true happiness?
and I want a gf lol
not for the social status but just because I'm so lonely man
i would kill to have someone that would actually make me feel not lonely
anyone wanna move into the woods with me :sob:
anyways i think this post is long enough i stopped making these types of posts cause no one really reads them but it feels great to talk about how I'm actually feeling cause i kinda just bottle it all up yknow? so even if you don't read the whole thing thank you for just being here lol gn chat