it cant be just me
ive been staring into space w my airpods in
just kind of existing
i wanna take a nap pengy sleeppyyy
i haven't had this much free time in so long
but it still feels like i should be doing smth productive idk

i hate how i don't know what the futures gonna be like
everything is just wait and see
will i ever be able to go out with friends again
will i be able to go to school again
can i make something out of this stupid situation
nobody knows
just gotta wait and see
i feel like i need to be present in the moment somehow
yet i cant stop worrying if i can ever be happy again

i lowk wanna just bawl my eyes out over everything
i gotta lock in though
the good thing about this health situation is that my mom felt bad and brought me sushi and boba cause i was cravin sht and it was yummy and made me happy
atp im just posting to get some stuff off my mind my blog is more for me now than for you
but dang it helps sm
so thanks for being here for me