guess where im going for spring break
nowhere yay
being away from my house for over a day is bad for my lungs yayyy I love my life so much isn't this awesome oh look school trip to dc I cant go oh you're going to japan nice if only I could do that oh cool you're going to a beautiful foreign country have fun oh ur going to a remote island and gonna have the time of your life wow that's awesome have fun
at least I get to sleep fml
please someone invent something that can fix me cause I am so done
this life is so depressing man I'm barely keeping myself sane

I mean honestly its not that bad I can see I can hear I can talk I can walk (cant run though), I tell people to enjoy what they have yet I struggle to do so in my own situation
I possess so many and so much, but even if I had the world in my hands it would never be enough. If I was confucius id seek to be wiser, at the top of the world id still look up higher, for I am still a human, cursed with insatiable desire

whatever maybe things will turn out alright
but the hope I've held onto this past year has consistently left me disappointed and in a worse situation than before

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i got a new saxophone mouthpiece
and if you don't know mouthpiece is super duper important and I have a cheap sax off from amazon so the mouthpiece is cheeks
but now I'm playing SO MUCH BETTER and I can play a lot quieter while still making sound and my tone is so much better
and also my old mouthpiece was really long (longer instrument=flatter pitch, shorter instrument=sharper pitch) and I was ALWAYS FLAT, always told to push the mouthpiece in (that's how you adjuct pitch on a sax) but since the mouthpiece was super long I physically couldn't push it in anymore so I was singlehandedly bringing the whole band down in terms of in tune ness
but now I can actually be in tone

also today I had a online doctor appointment and I never actually got told how the bronchoscopy was apparently they saw that instead of there being scarring and scar tissue like they saw last time, there was less of that and my airways were kinda floppy (the medical term is malacia) idk I kinda forgot the other stuff she said but overall it was alright my lungs just looked different I think
aight thats all cya thanks for reading