recently I've been feeling like
I don't wanna be pupitre anymore
like I don't identify with pupitre anymore which makes no sense
cuz like pupitre is legit just a word in Spanish that means student desk that I thought was funny bc it sounded like poopy tray in 5th grade
it's not smth that anyone should identify with in the first place cuz it's legit just a word
but since 5th grade right
it was like my nickname in spanish class cuz I liked the word so much
and it like became like my "alter-ego" in 7th grade
where "pupitre" was just like a more outgoing and open and funny version of me
since pupitre is like a funny word in English I used to identify with it since like
tbh I'm kinda weird
but the word pupitre doesn't rlly mean anything to me anymore and it's kinda like the nickname "isn't me" if that makes any sense
like when I made this acc I was like "yeah I'm pupitre alright"
but now I'm like
"wait but I'm not pupitre why did I use that like it isn't even me anymore"
idk this makes no sense
pls help me make sense of this cuz it isn't processing right in my head lol

ok sry for making u read that random stuff

adios