here's why
so basically
it's 6 pm
and I haven't got any work done
but I have a bunch of hw
in the past like 4 years
I've basically stopped reading for fun
and I only read the books required for school
but when I was in 2nd grade
I could read multiple chapter books in 1 day
but now I struggle to read 1 chapter in a day
when I was like 7 I could wake up at 6:30 and do a bunch of stuff before school
like legit
I feel so useless
all i do is sit in my room and watch "educational" yt videos
about random stuff
like random vsauce and veritasium videos
and I wait until like 10 pm to start doing any homework
the only time I'm slightly productive
is those days where i randomly get a burst of motivation and practice viola for 4 hours
I haven't done any like school enrichment stuff
or any extra math practice
or independent reading
in so long
ughhhhh

adios