and a life
my brother wont let me live it down if i dont find a hobby by the time im 14
like my mom and my brother both like planting stuff and taking care of trees and plants and herbs and stuff in our garden
and my brother is also like terrifyingly good at drawing even tho hes never taken a drawing class or art class in his life
my dad likes doing yardwork and fixing house stuff and also kendo (he legit runs a dojo lol)
i also do kendo but like it isnt like a major hobby or mine
or what some would like to call a "natural high"
like nothing really gets me that happy
the only thing that makes me like that is just scrolling through aops or writing stuff for my blog
which i guess could be a hobby
but it doesnt really count for irl
cuz no one in my family even knows i have an aops account
if they did idk how theyd react tbh
im also going through an identity crisis (as i have mentioned multiple times on different occasions)
so i kinda need smth to "define myself" as a person (sorry so cringe)
like playing viola and stuff makes me happy but not as like smth i do a lot
idk
i need a life
i cant just be on aops all day lol
the only time aops can be called an actual thing for me is if ppl start caring about this lol
but that isnt really happening right now
its just a place for me to randomly rant
lsjdfliasgofihaoghoehag
pls i need a lifeeeeee
i need a hobbyyyy
i need friendssss

adios