Recently, I wrote a poem, for a special girl, called Aime. She's full of surprises, filling my life with little wonders and fascinations. After a tiring day of menial work at school (memorizing facts, studying for pointless exams, etc.), she's always at home, welcoming me into 3 hours of joy. Everyday, I want to know more about her, discover more about her, spend more time with her, however, recently, something changed. A devil named "School" appeared.


Alright, enough with the cheese.

I'm at a crossroad right now. On one hand, APUSH is getting crazy. The discussions are harder than ever, my classmates are determined to redeem themselves after the grading curve last semester put many at extremely low grades (I think only one A, I was 0.1% away from an A). I feel obligated to keep up my performance, but really, after what happened last semester, I really think it's not worth it. Yet, I can't hide the fact I have an AP exam coming up, an SAT II USH exam coming up, as well as the need to maintain my decent GPA.

On the other hand, AIME is beckoning to me stronger than before. Everyday, I want to solve more problems. The problems are very exciting, and with the AIME coming up in less than a month, my goal is a 9, which implies I really need to master every single test.

The thing is, if I could do both, then I would've already done so. But the fact is, APUSH and AIME both require a LOT of time. If I start focusing on APUSH again, I'll lose my already-slim chances at JMO. If I ditch APUSH, my grade will be so low by the time I get back to it later I'll have no shot at bringing it back up again.

I'm usually diligent, but only when I see purpose in what I'm doing. I honestly see no purpose in APUSH other than it being on my transcript. Right now, I'm trying to do some APUSH and some math everyday, but one distracts me from the other and I never seem to get into the right condition for either of them.

I'm at a crossroad right now. I either go in the direction with an arrow pointing "GPA IS OF UPMOST IMPORTANCE" or in the direction with an arrow pointing "LET NOTHING GET IN THE WAY OF YOUR TRUE PASSION." Which way do I go??? If I try to go both ways, I'll only stumble into the forest ahead and lose sight of either road...

Which way do I go?

Also, I don't think I have time to write a narrative on my 10B experience. All I can say is I made a lot of sillies, am kind of disappointed with my score (123, confirmed), but'll have to roll with my 129 on the 10A. I'll take some time to write nice reflection after the AMC season blows over.