Save me...

by shiningsunnyday, Feb 10, 2018, 1:28 PM

I used to be a believer in parallel universes rather than simulation theory. After all, what's there to stop me from stopping my typing at the end of this sentence and hit the club to chug down some shots and do god-knows what? As a proud INTP for the majority of my life, introverted thinking (Ti) drove me to constantly intake new information and imagine the what if. In fact, I almost prided myself as being an INTP in my college apps, as my response to one college prompt went something like this:
Essay prompt wrote:
If you had an extra hour in the day, how would you spend the time? (50 words or less)
Me wrote:
Doing the math! To add one hour to every calendar while maintaining synchronization to the astronomical year, nine of twelve months must require an extra day, three months requiring two extra, and February loses a day every 24 years. Engrossed in this what if, today’s extra hour would be up!

Growing up, the internet become my escape. I would be reading SpaceX's website one moment and the next be watching a video explaining relativity in simple terms. My childhood naivete for seeking knowledge was my escape from everyday life, amongst Naruto, Skyrim, and wealth of anime and video games.
Gradually, my interest dampened on these things. The best way to put it is, sh*t just became boringly predictable. I was a class clown in middle school, so I've always had this knack of knowing how my actions would affect others' impressions of me. Pull a string here during a 6th grade english class impersonation, and the girls would laugh. Make an innuendo there, and the next moment a frown would be on the teacher's face. I always wanted attention, so most of socialization came in the form of trying different things, seeing how people respond, and adjusting my actions. I thought I could get anything I wanted in life, and those parent college talks was the stuff of the hour, so I thought, cool, I'll figure out how to get into a good college. Truth be told, who I am today was nearly the same person I envisioned myself to be 4 years ago, when I walked out of my middle school homeroom for the last time, held up a finger at the end of the hall (it was late at night), and shouted out, "I will succeed!"

Today, my world view are mostly the same, except even the once-blurry details are now all the more obvious. I no longer expend the energy to entertain the what-if, for I'm busy figuring out the what-is and the what-will. Most of modern society life to me seems now like a particle undergoing motion while defined by an underlying set of rules of physics. These real life occurrences appear to be the result of probability but their causes themselves are the result of actions that came before then, hence the saying "Everything happens for a reason." Sure, the rate at which possibilities multiply is near infinite, hence the illusion that everything seems possible. But really, once these underlying set of rules are known, most occurrences are predictable. Like in a video game, the NPCs seem to move about randomly, but they're the result of pseudo-random algorithms that are random enough to make us think they're random, but in reality are not. This is now why I believe in simulation theory.

If you think about it, most of our behaviors are becoming more and more predictable. The more competitive society becomes, the more our behavior is driven by the need to optimize our standing in society, because there's only a finite amount of resources (power, fame, money). When we like someone else's totally-undeserving pic of a random cake or something, it's not because we genuinely appraised it to be worthy of it, but because subconsciously our brain wires it to a higher chance the said someone will like our future pics, which is wired to a likelihood of higher standing. It's an uncomfortable truth, but most of our actions are explained by psychology. Being halfway done with the book Influence: Science and Practice, I learned a lot of ways salespeople and people in general manipulate in others using an understanding of basic psychological and civilizational principles, and it's astounding how all of this comes together. Essentially, we've become AI to the point everyone wants to optimize their actions to achieve a certain outcome most consistent with their values/belief (could be for money, power, being liked, or combination of any means of an end). Experience fine tunes our behavior model for optimization (like evolution but sped up so we can constantly see the updated results). It doesn't make sense that we whine and say AI will take away the spirits that make us human - curiosity, genuineness, passion, etc. - because honestly, we're already becoming AI ourselves (it's driven by evolutionary mechanisms that we must act in certain ways for us to survive in society). When I meet some mutual family friends, their children (who undergo the Chinese GaoKao), have essentially become robots. "6 AM wake up every morning. 7-10 AM language tutoring. 10-11 AM tennis practice. 11-12 lunch at cafeteria. 12-1 TOEFL tutoring. 1-3 math and science tutoring, etc." I had to pretend to listen intently as their parents tell me their children's academic regime. Then they give me that surely-you-understand-this-for-you-went-through-it-yourself-and-now-you're-on-top look. "What advice can you give?" I usually just provide some general template and act polite. I do understand, and it's not that I don't want to help, but more that I've seen through the system itself completely and it doesn't work, less so the further ahead I look. In 10 years, majority of education will be personalized online. In 20 years, teachers will be replaced by AI. In 30 years, brain implants will be available that provide the most direct form of education. By midcentury, our brains would be connected to a cloud. In this future where googling for information is automated inside our brain on a subconscious level, it's not just fitting to say what we're doing now is meaningless, it's akin to serving a sentence in jail. Of course, those in my family I tell this to think I'm ridiculous, but it will happen (and I will be a part of it). But the bigger question at hand is, what are the things that are still meaningful, now, in 10 years, 20 years, forever? How can we ingrain purpose for humans when AI takes over society and UBI introduced? What can be preserved and what must go, and how will we adapt? I toss and turn a lot of such schemes in my head. That explains why I'm now an INTJ.
So no, I didn't take the AMC and didn't plan to take any math contests this year. There're bigger problems that we must solve and their links to the fate of humanity are ones that only our generation can create and secure.

In real life, I roam around a lot now to all sorts of places in the city (almost none of my energy is expended on day-to-day life, so I guess that makes me in the eyes of others spontaneous af). Sigh, I wish I was less lonely. An ENFP/ENFJ girlfriend (or any intuitive-mbti-types) would be nice company until college starts and provide me of some last pre-adulthood fun, at which point its time to start turning these crazy schemes of mine into reality (funding, VCs, business plans, learning markets, startups...). As graduation approaches, I guess I'll keep making my plans.

Check out my website for more elaboration of the visions/schemes I have in mind in the near and distant future.

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Dang we're starting to see

math olympiad contestant SSD -> philosopher SSD?

Tangentially addressing one of the issues brought up in this post:
I think after reading a lot of opinions on forums and articles about the automation/UBI/information revolution I've really come to the conclusion that we as humans need purpose to live. Whether it's an unhealthy obsession with college prestige, the pressure of your parents' obsession with college prestige, practice and persistence in math olympiads/competitions (for a good example see AIME12345's Zero Tolerance/Less than Zero Tolerance), DECA, debate, scamming the 99% out of their hard-earned money, etc.

If we don't have purpose, we can't really function in our lives. Heck, there's a really strong correlation between unemployed men and men who are additcted to opioids.

Dave from Dave (1993) said it perfectly:
Dave wrote:
Have you ever seen the look on a person's face when they finally get a job... They look like they could fly. And it's... it's not about the paycheck, it's about respect, it's about looking in the mirror and knowing that you've done something valuable with your day.

So finding purpose when all our purpose as workers may be taken away is definitely an important issue in our society.

Yes, in fact I'll devote my life to figuring out a way to give purpose if need be, in the upcoming age of AI. I think jobs are only one way to purpose - since happiness peaks during retirement (could be as simple as hanging out with friends and taking care of a dog).
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by jonlin1000, Feb 10, 2018, 11:45 PM

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How can we ingrain purpose for humans when AI takes over society and UBI introduced?
maybe you've heard of it already, but Elon Musk's Neuralink, aside from just buffing the brain, appears to have a longer range goal of, together with openAI, making AI part of us, rather than a distinct entity

maybe an early hominid might ask, if it were slightly smarter, but not quite as smart humans, what purpose there would be in life - without the daily trials of survival in the forest
but their descendants enjoy an entirely unforeseeable purpose - with greater intelligence sprang new purpose. who would've imagined younglings enjoying beauty like mathematics nowadays, in the hunter gatherer times?
it's my 2 cents, from a tired and naive child who skimmed through bostrom's superintelligence, but I think we're fine: most will find a purpose anyway, but it's going to be something we currently can't fathom ! maybe one day people will be complaining that USAMO #1 is just a rehash of p vs np, trivial. we'll enjoy visiting our grand^8 children in alpha centauri, living in hyperbolic space in VR, maybe even play immersive video games in primitive societies...when death is still a problem and school saps the passion from children! the horror!
(and to those that don't have a purpose - well jonlin shows us that's not a problem of the future, that's already a problem of the present.)

oops that was a long paragraph sorry for your eyes kid
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So no, I didn't take the AMC and didn't plan to take any math contests this year. There're bigger problems that we must solve and their links to the fate of humanity are ones that only our generation can create and secure.
your posts are really inspirational. I like the shift in scope and maturity that's happened since last year, from USAMO dream to AI dream!

There is the fact of the hedonic treadmill - our happiness adjusts to our current state (both a disabled person and a jackpot winner's happiness will return back to normal levels after long periods of time). So I'm comfortable saying we'll be fine, given that systems are in place for that to happen (if not, we may end up in chaos, just imagine the happiness level during WWII, say). The stakes of AI is that it could lead us forward, or it could be disastrous. Since we can't stop technological advancement, we need to start setting up precautions to prepare for their take-over of us in the future (we may become pets, but at least happy pets).

I'm actually against the missions of Neuralink and Kernel (will explain in post on new blog).
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by ImpossibleCube, Feb 11, 2018, 1:46 AM

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good post :)

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It doesn't make sense that we whine and say AI will take away the spirits that make us human - curiosity, genuineness, passion, etc. - because honestly, we're already becoming AI ourselves (it's driven by evolutionary mechanisms that we must act in certain ways for us to survive in society)

did we ever actually have those traits? throughout all of human history, curiosity and genuine passion and etc. have always been luxuries only available for the wealthiest and most well-educated 1% or so of society. and for example if you look at the golden age of classical music or painting or romantic literature, you see the money for this sort of endeavor almost always is financed through imperialism, taxes, etc. by large governments in western europe or america. i'd argue that the fraction of society which behaves in a "productive" or "human" way has always been fairly small and perhaps has remained fairly constant? and while modern technology and etc. have expanded those opportunities to a greater pool of people (eg. a poor person has much more potential to do stuff than they did a few centuries ago), the actual number of people who take advantage of these opportunities is still quite small as you noted earlier

I agree, but I think it doesn't deny that those traits are in every one of us, it's just that circumstances haven't allowed most in society to embrace it. Tho tech is allowing a larger group of ppl to be reached, it also offsets itself since it does so by motivating ppl extrinsically. The problem is extrinsic motivation isn't sustainable, and def won't be when AI hits.
In a motivation vacuum, I'm afraid chaos will ensue, so it's important to figure out how we can bring out the intrinsic motivation for ppl to feel purposeful in the future.
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by tastymath75025, Feb 12, 2018, 2:21 AM

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    by First, Apr 14, 2018, 6:00 PM

  • Great, amazing, inspiring blog. Good luck in life, and just know I aspire to succeed as you will in the future.

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  • Yesyesyes

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  • did you get into MIT?

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  • wait what new site?

    by yegkatie, Feb 11, 2018, 1:49 AM

  • Yea, doing a bit of cleaning before migrating to new site

    by shiningsunnyday, Jan 21, 2018, 2:43 PM

  • Were there posts made in December 2017 for this blog and then deleted?

    I ask because I was purging my thunderbird inbox and I found emails indicating new blog posts of yours.

    email do not lie

    by jonlin1000, Jan 21, 2018, 12:12 AM

  • @below sorry not accepting contribs

    by shiningsunnyday, Dec 11, 2017, 11:15 AM

  • contrib plez?
    also wow this blog is very popular

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  • @First: lol same

    first shout of december

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  • XD this blog is hilarious

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  • @wu2481632: stop encouraging SSD to procrastinate(blog entries are fun but procrastination isn't).

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  • First august shout!!

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