so as you might know
noozie passed away last night
it was both painful and relieving at the same time
because of how much pain she was in

she'd been sick for such a long time
and we'd only taken her to the vet two days ago
but the stress might've been too much for her
because yesterday
her health deteriorated rapidly

until she could barely breathe
and couldn't eat
and couldn't drink
and couldn't even open her eyes
and there was blood where she lay
and it was really sad to watch
really really sad

she was like this for hours
she was dying
but she fought for life and stayed alive for another day
my noozie
strong until the end

she died last night as i comforted her one last time
she was calmer
as if she accepted her fate
my beautiful hamster
shes
accepting and strong
and so muchm ore

so finally
she passed away
its so sad
but so relieving
she was so sick
and

but
im going to miss so many things
her eating
her playing with me
her excitement
i lost a part of myself when i lost her

its hard to believe that its already over
the time we had together was so short
but so filled
i
it was the best seven months of my entire life
the time i spent with her

and
fly high noozie
ill always love you
you'll go to the highest part of heaven
and my love will keep you from danger
rest where there's your favorite food everywhere
and
other people maybe better than me to take care of you

darn noozie
i didn't know it would be this hard to let you go
i didn't know i'd cry this much
but
yeah

i love you so, so, so, so, so much noozie, more than words can explain
u were my most loyal friend
just a few more nights and i'll be there to see you again
promise

edit: ik that a lot of you were really concerned about me because of the last two lines -- i apologise. i truly didn't mean this in entire s*icidal intentions; it means how time passes quick and how quickly i'd be able to see noozie again. i feared that noozie would be lonely and sad without me. however when noozie did pass i did experience situational depression, anxiety, sickness, and other scary symptoms i hope none of you will go through. for those saying these last lines are for attention, to be simple and to control my genuine annoyance -- no, they're not -- for those being concerned, I'm very sorry and i hope you know those weren't my true intentions. thank you for all the sweet messages. noozie will always be loved and in my heart, as well as yours.