okay not really like trouble-trouble but me and this one boy had leftover matches from our experiment and he lit a small piece of a paper towel on fire
my friend screamed in a loud voice "[flec] what ru doing" and got the attention of the teacher a tad bit annoyed at her for that, maybe keep a bit quieter next time i'm tryna get away with a crime even though i wasnt lighting the paper i was there and because of her screaming everyone thought it was me
anyways the teacher saw and the boy i was with completely backed out of it and threw me under the bus LOL even though he was the one who lit the match. technically we should be of the same responsibility, if not me less ykyk.

teacher was annoyed and told me to not light things without knowing its flammability and i tried very hard to resist the urge to tell her that i had done research on it and also that i didnt light the stupid match
i messed up though and i felt really bad tbh because imagine the panic she'd feel before she knew that it was just a paper towel. she probably had 5 heart attacks at the words "what ru doing!!!", especially after what happened the last time we had an experiment involving fire. i apologized and we cool now (: hopefully i haven't annoyed her because i am an over-apologizer...
the only person i'm annoyed with now is the boy for backing out and throwing me under the bus when he was the one who lit the match :') teacher was madder at me for lighting the match and setting things on fire and i was like, i was part of the plan i'm really really really sorry i f ed up but i really didnt do anything :') ah the life.
it's my fault though, i just get annoyed at people who throw others under the bus lol
for people wondering, lighting a paper towel on fire, it's not like really dangerous unless you like put it near another flammable object that's much bigger and has the potential to make the fire bigger. if you want to try it it's actually very interesting and nice to take pictures of ;; the pictures turn out very pretty. however, don't do it at school. learn your lesson from me, the impulsive risk-taker. i'll do the crimes for you and you just listen to do the fun things without dying ;]

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after reading and writing all of these books/stories about living life with no regrets, i think i forgot to apply it in reality. i really did live this one science period like it was my last, because it would be exactly what i would've done if i knew i would be dying that day. except that i'm probably not dying today, though who knows lol
maybe i'm growing up. i'm doing things i never would have when i was younger.
maybe being a teenager is hitting me hard and i'm doing stupid things. that might be true, too. i don't know, and i was fighting the urge to want to cry at the end of the period because i dont know what the hell happened, and for a minute i was proud of myself, and the next moment i don't know why i'm stupid like that and why i had changed. why i thought schools would change and let me do the things i want.

learned a lesson--it sucks to keep in touch with reality, but you have to. please don't live your days like it's your last at school. do it somewhere else where you won't get caught... jkjk. do fun things that aren't illegal.

(attached is a picture i took. this was part of the experiment and not the other stupid fire lol that one was much smaller. anyways, it's one of my favourites and i think it's very pretty. i wanted to share it with you guys)