eight things that make my life hard

by flec, Dec 1, 2023, 4:06 AM

self explanatory title, but i'm not being emo and just stating straight up traits i have

1) environmental allergies: one nostril is permanently stuffy. i've tried those little sprays that u do but every time i spray the stuffy part the other one immediately becomes stuffy and repeat infinity

2) lactose intolerance + mild dairy allergy + sensitivity to eggs, oily things, and gluten. OH MY GOD THAT CUPCAKES LOOKS SOOOOOO... goood...... [life ending sigh]

3) procrastination + physically not being able to focus if something is boring. i sit and mess around for four of my six class periods, and the only ones i pay attention are in ap environmental science and pe. we're in our badminton unit. :}

4) over competitiveness but no motivation to follow through

5) 8-year-lasting emetophobia which led to mild/moderately mild anxiety

6) cavities and gum pain from lack of sleep: everyone is like why is this on ur list but i'm telling you, toothpain is painful and i skipped eating chips for like three weeks because of it

7) literally chronic dry skin. no lotion has fixed this problem

8) being an asian trying to get into college while competing against thousands of other asians that are better than me in every single way possible, including being me
these are physical traits (traits that you can like factually say "she is [trait]." (and yes, over competitiveness is a fact) that you can describe me with so therefore these don't make me emo. i'm the opposite of emo and to prove that i wore pink last weekend and i went out with friends.

but there are these two emo kids in my pe class and they spend the entirety of class crying and every time someone makes the slightest loud noise they collapse on the ground in sobs while covering their ears. if it's real, i feel very sorry for them. if it's fake, well, mess around and find out.

anyways if all of these six disappeared i would not be me, but then again i really wish i didn't have the sensitivities to all those foods because i really like ice cream and nutella
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Trust, everyone has procrastination. I heard somewhere that people with high iq tend to have more of these adhd like symtpoms and struggle to not procrastinate but idk if its true

by ericwzzhang, Dec 1, 2023, 4:18 AM

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oh yeah and my dad always reminds me about #8 and im just gonna save that for future me to stress about
i feel like its gonna be annoying .-.

by ericwzzhang, Dec 1, 2023, 4:19 AM

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i'm not gonna lie as a person with 145 iq having high iq is very difficult sometimes. sometimes i wish i had normal (like around 125)

sure we have a head start but just because u have good iq doesnt make u smart... u have to work for it, and if ur like me and u have the iq but not the motivation, ur just gonna end up behind everyone with lower but tries harder

and that really really doesnt feel good
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by flec, Dec 1, 2023, 4:20 AM

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:O sheesh flec big smart

honestly i like being able to analyze stuff theres a lot of things i do in some situations that i dont know if others do but personally its pretty satisfying to put my braincells to good use

by ericwzzhang, Dec 1, 2023, 4:26 AM

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eric high iq doesnt really do anything except make you more creative ig and just understand faster. it doesnt make u smarter. all it did for me is put me in hc and impress some people with my sudoku skills but really after that it depends on how hard you work... and ngl i struggle so much when focusing on stuff i genuinely dont give two craps on which is why i'm worried about falling behind later

by flec, Dec 1, 2023, 4:28 AM

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1000% relate to 8

by Helena_Liang, Dec 1, 2023, 5:37 AM

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oh.

i understand.

by ericwzzhang, Dec 1, 2023, 5:39 AM

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what how did i get sniped by two minutes

by ericwzzhang, Dec 1, 2023, 5:39 AM

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were u typing for those minutes or smth

by flec, Dec 1, 2023, 5:51 AM

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no i pulled the page up read ur comment thought for like 30 seconds and made a post

by ericwzzhang, Dec 1, 2023, 5:58 AM

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MY NOSTRILS ARE ALWAYS STUFFY TOO LIKE I CANT BREATHE PROPERLY
bro i procrastinate sm
if it's not interesting i immediately don't care and lose all motivation
that ended up in me starting to fail my classes and now im desperately trying to get my crap together before first semester ends :sob:
my teeth have issues too! according to my dentist my teeth have like zero protective barrier on them (he compared them to a brick texture) and i've had like 10 cavities in my lifetime
i had to get them drilled out then refilled

an issue i have is like no motivation for self-care??
like i don't brush my teeth for two weeks (maybe that's why my teeth are so bad)
i dont do any skincare and have terrible acne
i don't shower sometimes and end up having a super dead scalp
one time i didnt shower for two weeks straight!! that was the first weeks of summer when i literally forgot going outside is something i can do and rotted in my room for hours
ngl this is making me sound really gross (i lowkey am)
this is something i really wanna work on bc i dont like being stinky! :D$~$

by jupey, Dec 1, 2023, 10:31 AM

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@jupey ah i feel you i care about self care a lot but there are a lot of things i also don't give craps about :|
even sadder for me is that when my mom used to brush my teeth as a kid i never got cavities but ever since she just handed over the brush without telling me what to do i got cavities... like so bad they were so deep too because i only go once a year :') lol
bro i brush my teeth SO well every day because of the pain i went through and now my gums are hurting from lack of sleep ;-; my mouth ache never ends bro

@jupey one thing that reminded/motivated me to do my skincare and haircare and stuff was seeing how good i looked when i did it lol i recommend doing it once and since u'll feel so much better you'll just keep doing it trust

by flec, Dec 1, 2023, 3:45 PM

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i can post my haircare and skincare on my private blog if you want so you can get started :] although i lowkey might differ from you because i have extreme dry skin

by flec, Dec 1, 2023, 3:47 PM

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ADVICE ON DRY SKIN
ok i had like extra extra dry skin for like a month
it comes and goes but like basically my face peels and wont stop
and it hurts to touch my face w/ my hands or w/ water and it stings to sweat
it hurt so bad omgg
and istg i tried like every lotion/moisturizer/home remedy (like cold showers)
AND NOTHING WORKED
BUT THEN
i used some la mer thick moisturizer
its rly expensive but got it on sale
AND LITERALLY NO EXAGGERATION WITHIN THE NEXT 2 DAYS MY SKIN STOPPED PEELING
AND NOW ITS NORMAL
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

by madeleinelee, Dec 1, 2023, 8:34 PM

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SAME ON THE EMETOPHOBIA!!
its recently gotten a lot better but omg it controlled my life for years

by lakesiide, Dec 1, 2023, 9:48 PM

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REALLY OMG WE HAVE TO TALK BRO
emeto still controls my life ngl :’) it gets better but it’s like on and off sometimes i will be perfectly fine and then every little feeling in my stomach will suddenly send a warning sign to me…
it’s been 8 years since i actually um, had to face my fear so i’ve been better but still

by flec, Dec 1, 2023, 10:32 PM

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i totally get that
honestly facing said fear a few months ago helped a lot with mine
i still hate it but im not terrified anymore
which is a good thing bc im nauseated like a lot

by lakesiide, Dec 2, 2023, 2:53 AM

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omg did u actually...? like, get sick? how bro if i ever felt the feeling i genuinely believe i would jump off a building before it could happen
thats how bad my fear is
i also have a sensitive stomach and it makes my anxiety a lot worse honestly

by flec, Dec 2, 2023, 3:27 AM

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yeahhh
god it was awful

but then when it was over i was like "ok that wasnt that bad"

by lakesiide, Dec 2, 2023, 2:13 PM

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no way… thats my biggest fear right there and i cant believe that bro

by flec, Dec 2, 2023, 6:42 PM

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but like, the feeling before, esp if ur building, is what i fear just as much
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by flec, Dec 2, 2023, 6:43 PM

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yeahhh
nausea is so much worse tbh

random tip: rubbing alcohol
just like smell some and bam nausea gone (temporarily)
at least for me

by lakesiide, Dec 2, 2023, 9:52 PM

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for me, i dont get nausea (unless im on my period) but my anxiety makes me feel nauseous which is incurable bruh

by flec, Dec 2, 2023, 11:33 PM

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dang.. i didn't know it was that serious
i rly hope it gets better soon man
it sounds tough living like that good luck

by ericwzzhang, Dec 3, 2023, 2:31 AM

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i got used to it, it's okay. it's only bad sometimes. thank you <3 ily

by flec, Dec 3, 2023, 3:09 AM

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lol i can resonate with 1 and 7

i’ve had a stuffy nose all my life and those nostril sprays just make me sneeze instead :help:

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