things about me that make my life easier + something i want to tell everyone
by flec, Jan 7, 2024, 3:50 AM
i usually don't mind if people don't read to the end because my posts are long as hecc but not this. anyways i've done one on things i don't like, and i think that if you look at yourself from a nonbiased point of view there's really a lot you can achieve
it's sad how viewing yourself in a positive light is so frowned upon these days, while viewing yourself in a negative one is also criticized. like you'll either be called a bragger or a compliment fisher, and please just decide on one but okay
these are all logical ones that are facts, though, and not something like "i am tall" because that's subjective you know.
i usually don't like it when people are inspired by my entries, but i think i should set those emotions aside and encourage people to do this on your own blog!
i was taught by society to be humble that i wouldn't even take a moment to acknowledge how i should love these things about myself and instead learned to just talk about things i don't like.
but i think that you should enjoy the little things.
today, a mom at my art studio looked at me and told the teacher that i was really pretty. the teacher ran over to me and told me hahah. back when i was younger, i would've pressed back those positive feelings and been like, "no, you can't think that, you'd be called egotistical. you're very ugly" but i actually smiled, and when my teacher was like "are you gonna brag or be humble" (we were talking about how society will shame you for both) and i replied with, "oh hell yeah i'm going to brag!"
it's not bragging, though. if someone compliments you, you have every right to be proud of it is what i think! i mean, who wouldn't feel good if someone complimented them?
so yeah.
don't feel bad about this if you see things on this list that don't necessarily apply to you. if everyone had the same traits, our world would be really boring. but everyone has traits to themselves that are good. icy has the best art ever. helena's hella good at math (no pun intended). ming is literally the smartest person i've ever met and the first person to ever unlock the ability to grind video games as a high school junior. ngl everyone on aops too, whether you're here to do math or blog or troll on forums. it means you have the passion to do something. i know it doesn't seem like passion when you're here to procrastinate, but i actually disagree. to do anything takes passion. even getting out of bed and walking around takes passion.
thinking you're #1 at everything and being condescending towards others and liking yourself and who you are for what you do have, are different things.
flec did you write this whole essay just to brag about the fact that someone called you pretty today because it never happens?
no i promise i didn't. i actually have a private pm where i send myself images, ideas, and blog post things. had this since the fifth!
it's sad how viewing yourself in a positive light is so frowned upon these days, while viewing yourself in a negative one is also criticized. like you'll either be called a bragger or a compliment fisher, and please just decide on one but okay
these are all logical ones that are facts, though, and not something like "i am tall" because that's subjective you know.
- i'm ambidextrous. can use chopsticks with one hand and spoon with the other (though i know non ambidex people who also can do that comfortably). if i'm writing an essay by hand and my hand hurts, i can switch. can play table tennis with two paddles. if my hand hurts when i'm serving in volleyball i can switch (although i suck at serving with my left hand LOL). i can hit with my left hand if the set is too outside. i can set better.
- i'm healthy. although the environmental allergies i have make it impossible to breathe comfortably, it's a fact that i am healthy. i rarely get sick, once or twice a year at most. i can run really well. although my dad did smoke before and after i was born, i still have healthy lungs and got 2nd highest functional residual capacity in my science class (or whatever it's called ;; we tested by blowing into something and seeing our numbers) with 2.2k as a 3rd grader (the only person higher than me was a boy, and boys usually have higher by 200-300 than girls). i know a friend who has had five cardiac arrests and had to go to the hospital for a heart surgery already, and she still has to walk around with a device just in case. it makes me realize how lucky i am to be able to run, walk, and live my life peacefully
- i'm pretty mentally stable + strong. a lot of people i know are self harming, depressed, or struggling with some sort of mental illness that makes life difficult for them. although i have my downs, too, i realized that i bounce back pretty well. i don't get as hurt easily by words anymore. i learned to forgive others and forgive myself. i focus on the future and i have goals and things i am passionate about. i have dreams for the future. i move on. i do have mild ocd and anxiety, and i used to hate that about myself, but as i've grown older i've realized it could've been so much worse and i'm lucky to be able to see the world in a positive light, and although it kinda sucks sometimes, that it has been good to me so far.
- i have parents that piss me off sometimes, but still care overall. okay sometimes i will promise myself that i'll run away at 18. but i know that without my parents, i wouldn't be where i am right now. they are the people who i go between loving and hating and feel indifferent towards the most, but in the end, no matter how i feel about them, they'll love me. i remember a conversation my mom and i had.
mom: i'll love you, [flec], always
8 year old me: even if i kill someone?
mom: even if you're a murderer, a robber, whatever.
8 year old me: i killed an ant yesterday - i have friends. honestly living is so much more fun when you have friends, and i'm lucky to have a big group of people who i can hang out with literally every week and do everything and anything while never getting tired of each other. these are my friends who will literally always be on my side. i remember when i got in trouble for participating where people were lighting paper towels on fire and my friend said, "zamn it it's [teacher]'s fault for putting the paper towels in there. even i would have lit them on fire. she should be glad the school's still standing" and it honestly meant so much to me. i feel like we can stand against whatever. we went on our school vacation together. we've laughed at sleepovers until 3 in the morning, then pointed fingers afterwards about who started to watch those entertaining tiktoks. our group chat is active every day and we send reels to each other all the time. yeah. it's nice.
- i have a crush. i know this is really low key but every time i start to like someone i'm hit with the epiphany that having a crush really makes your life better. i've started to look forward to going to school to see him, and i've gotten experienced at going out of my comfort zone to talk to him. i'm delulu with my crushes sometimes and whenever he'll smile at me i will literally feel so happy. i know it doesn't mean that he likes me, but for those short moments i will feel happiness like i've never felt before, and it's amazing.
i usually don't like it when people are inspired by my entries, but i think i should set those emotions aside and encourage people to do this on your own blog!
i was taught by society to be humble that i wouldn't even take a moment to acknowledge how i should love these things about myself and instead learned to just talk about things i don't like.
but i think that you should enjoy the little things.
today, a mom at my art studio looked at me and told the teacher that i was really pretty. the teacher ran over to me and told me hahah. back when i was younger, i would've pressed back those positive feelings and been like, "no, you can't think that, you'd be called egotistical. you're very ugly" but i actually smiled, and when my teacher was like "are you gonna brag or be humble" (we were talking about how society will shame you for both) and i replied with, "oh hell yeah i'm going to brag!"
it's not bragging, though. if someone compliments you, you have every right to be proud of it is what i think! i mean, who wouldn't feel good if someone complimented them?
so yeah.
don't feel bad about this if you see things on this list that don't necessarily apply to you. if everyone had the same traits, our world would be really boring. but everyone has traits to themselves that are good. icy has the best art ever. helena's hella good at math (no pun intended). ming is literally the smartest person i've ever met and the first person to ever unlock the ability to grind video games as a high school junior. ngl everyone on aops too, whether you're here to do math or blog or troll on forums. it means you have the passion to do something. i know it doesn't seem like passion when you're here to procrastinate, but i actually disagree. to do anything takes passion. even getting out of bed and walking around takes passion.
thinking you're #1 at everything and being condescending towards others and liking yourself and who you are for what you do have, are different things.
no i promise i didn't. i actually have a private pm where i send myself images, ideas, and blog post things. had this since the fifth!

This post has been edited 5 times. Last edited by flec, Jan 7, 2024, 3:57 AM