alright guys the ultimate, ironic, and kind of funny moment that i've been stressing seeing ahead of me

so yeah i'll just tell the story from where we left off, i guess.

so i have a friend who is friends with of both me and him

he saw me texting him and was like "oh, him? do you like him?"

since we've been friends for a really long time and it was like his 50th time asking, i went "yes, [name], i have a big fat-ahh crush on him."

he laughed and was like "okay i'm not surprised."

i decided to take the bold move and just said "hey can you ask him like in a casual conversation if he's interested in anyone?"

he said "yeah of course!"

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kkay 30 minutes later i was on the bus on the way home from school

i was texting my crush when suddenly he goes

"whoa. you need a better wingman."

and he showed me a screenshot of what my friend had said

my friend had TEXTED him. out of the blue. with the words "[flec] wants to know if you like her."

i panicked right there and then and went on instagram and started screaming at him. i was like "THAT IS NOT WHAT I SAID" "wth" and other jibberish out of actual panic because yeah

i don't have the words to explain it i just panicked

anyhow he later defended himself with the words "well you gotta be brave and bold sometimes [flec]"

later i finally gathered the courage to open messages again and saw that he had texted me saying "[flec] text me when you're home"

i was like but it's not cool to ghost right so i texted him back

he said something along the lines of chill it's fine don't be embarrassed. i like you. wasn't that pretty obvious?

so my heart dropped in both shock ... actually, it just dropped in shock. i was gonna say something cheesy like shock, astonishment, and surprise and realized that all means the same thing

anyhow

nothing much after that we just talked about how it's both of our first times in a relationship. like how weird it is. how we can't believe this is actually happening. how this happened so fast. we went from basically just acquaintances to this in like, a little over a week

it was pretty simple though. he went "listen. i'm just gonna ask you out. do you want to be my girlfriend?"

i said yaaaa end of story

he asked me out over text messages

couldn't be happier

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some cute moments afterwards that i was like, dang he's a good guy:
- he said that he didn't want to be just friends and he thought it was kind of awkward to be just friends when you know you like each other. it takes a lot of bravery to say that. i was like, wow

- he said he loved that he finally found someone he liked not just for looks but as a person as well. i saved this message in chat because of how much it touched me. he said i was cute but not like, turbo hot in a way it makes him uncomfortable and nervous and stuff. honestly, it meant so much to me. i don't want someone liking me over looks. the fact that i was his type but also not like 100% his looks type but he still thought of me this way meant a lot more than he would've expected.

- he told me that i was the person he could tell anything to. the fact that he trusted me made me feel like i had succeeded in life. we would be able to talk things out for real then and not bottle our emotions and stuff

- said that we could take things our own pace. we're inexperienced--he wanted to be with me, but he's fine with taking things slow.

- like i said, he's older than me. i finally told him that was one of my worries and he said that it's no big of a difference. i said how i wanted to talk that out with him to make sure as i didn't want anything to be wrecked because of that. he said "nothing's getting wrecked." my heart was like "frick it i'm out."

- he said he didn't care about what others thought of us or him or whatever. that itself just. speaks.

- i said that even if we were to split someday, i still wanted to be cool. he said of course and that he's not the type of person to ever make enemies. oh god i was just... okay no comment there you get the idea i was touched

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my overall reflection:

it's my first time being confessed too and it's also my first time confessing.

i'm not sure if i'm ready for a relationship yet but like i said, he's a great guy. whatever happens, i want to see it and i want to be there and i want to be ready.

sure, relationships can not work out, but if you know the other person's a good person, you know it can at least not end on a bad note.

i'm really excited