amc 10 is just around the corner and i can't find the words to tell my math teacher that i don't want to take it

so when i was around 10 years old i was like most of the aops kids here and i entered all sorts of math competitions and crap
like yk amc, mathcounts, math kangaroo, that kind of thing
after covid though i started fading away from that kind of math
i took math courses because i wanted to do well in school, because i want to do well in precalc, ap calculus ab, then eventually bc
but i was never really passionate
when i took math classes with my teacher
he thought i was good and he really wanted me to compete and make it an extracurricular.
he's still like that and he's vigorously training me to do well on the amc 10 this year
he always tells me, "making aime shouldn't be a goal. it should be something that should happen."

but the thing is, i'm not a math kid anymore
i like volleyball, writing, art, music so much better now
i'd rather take a walk outside, pepper with a friend, or sing karaoke than do math now
i know some people here are so passionate about math but i really don't understand people who have "math" in their username or "math" in the interest category of their aops profile

in 5th grade, even when i got a 16 out of 25 on the amc 8, i didn't feel the kind of disappointment i'd feel after losing a volleyball game. a lot of my aops friends back then, also 5th graders, would be in tears after a 24 or something. i know people who are passionate about math compare themselves to others based on amc scores. but even as a competitive fifth grader who cried after losing monopoly, i didn't care. i think that was, and still is a sign that math isn't my passion
i chose not to enter mathcounts national even though i qualified because i simply just didn't want to. i threw away an opportunity that most would treasure. also a sign.
in my school, i'm the only freshmen in precalculus (i was able to skip three grades of math cuz i was in hc as kid, plus i skipped another grade level of math after passing a test that my teacher made for me).
at my school everyone's like "[flec] do you wanna be an academic weapon when you grow up?"
and i'm like "no!" because i truly don't
there are people away from my school, even just a few miles away, that are so much "smarter" than me and work so much harder than me in math
i might be the smart kid at my school because i'm in the highest math class, but in aops, volleyball, anywhere else, i want to be anything but

a lot of people want to win in math
they want to be that smart kid in aops
they want to make aime, be the one saying "oh i have a 25 on the amc8, oh i got a 120 on amc 10"
i realized it wasn't my passion
and if i chase something that's not my passion, i'm not going to be happy

i just can't find the words to tell that to my math tutor
i was lucky to be accepted as a student to him, because he rarely accepts new people
he wants me to take the amc 10
he expects me to make aime
he wants me to study for jmo
and i'm like, telling myself, i don't even want to take amc 10 this year. i don't even want to ever take jmo, because i would think about volleyball and fall asleep and then cry my eyes out under the pressure.

he sends me amc 10 practice sheets every week
he's disappointed when i only solve like 15 questions.
he thinks i'm capable enough to solve over 20.
which i might be, but i just don't want to.

how do i tell someone, who's so passionate about math, that i just don't feel the same way?

because to me, it's okay to be on aops and not like math.
it's okay not to be the best.
it's okay to get the stupid 24/25 on the amc 8
to me, 24/25, 10/25, 8/25, 1/25, it's really the same thing unless you make it something different.
i don't want to rank myself on this huge aops scale because of my amc scores or whatever.

i don't like math.

i just wish he'd understand that and take my hints

i have doodles all over my math notebook, i'm missing classes for my volleyball tournaments, i'm stressed when i'm solving math and i don't understand the hype of winning math awards and stuff. i wish he'd give the opportunity to someone else, and just help me with my school work. because bruh i just want to pass